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Day #3 of EOY : Math Paper
Saturday 29 September 2012

I had Math Paper today and the difficulty is Normal-Hard.. I asked my friend who set the paper and surprisingly, it was Mdm Low. Seriously Mdm Low. I hate her to the core and she set the freaking Math Paper.. There were 2 questions that I couldn't really do because I forget the formulas but at least I can do the rest of the questions :) The morning was panicky as a lot of us were rushing to memorise our formulas especially LEONY! She looked super stressed and was super serious! I love her <3 I hope I could score well for the paper after praying!

After the exam, me, Liyana, Dini and Amaris went to Mcdonalds to eat breakfast/lunch. Liyana and Amaris went to the big bookshop while Dini and me stayed because we wanted to study. I actually brought 2 of my Science files but only the Bio file was filed properly but the Physics file was not. So in the end, Dini read my Chem notes and I studied a bit of Bio :)

Guess that's about it. Next paper is LSS! Jiayou! Hwaiting! Byeee~


SELECTED!
Friday 28 September 2012



I was jumping up and down when I received the email. Natalie called me first to check my e-mail and I immediately went to check. It was so satisfying as I thought that I wouldn't go. But God was on my side. I really trusted God during that time and look at the miracle he gave me <3 Guess Natalie and Me will still be room mates like last year's JSA Wushu trip! My back is now hurting and I couldn't sit straight! Hahaha^^ Gotta relax and study first since tomorrow is Math Exam. Damn how I hate Math. Ok. Wish the Wushu team luck for the Competition in China! 5 NOVEMBER! WAIT FOR MEEEEEE~


Day #2: MT Paper

I wanted to try this and I feel it fun so yeah! I'm gonna blog everyday until EOY ends~ Sorry for not blogging this yesterday but here it is!

MT paper 1 was meh. I answered Q5 for composition and Q1 for letter writing. I wrote about this girl who met a friend online and they are meeting at a club in Singapore River. She drank a drink. danced with her online friend and found herself in a hotel room. She was raped and was traumatized. I feel that if I wrote that composition in English, it would have been much better.

MT paper 2 as expected, it was easy. Its not like I could get full marks or what but its like primary school work to be honest. I didn't really stressed that much as I remembered my metaphors/peribahasa so I guess I could score well for that particular section. I even managed to sleep for 15 mins. Syania was sleeping soundly but got distracted by Shaheer, Daniel and Ali. The three musketeers!

So I had a study session with Syania today at her house and it was EPIC! We read imagines of One Direction and studied Math. She was super cute and I guess I will study Science with her tomorrow~ Her Mum was strict and I felt scared ._. Haha, anyways, it was fun studying with her and we got addicted to this particular song which will be kept a secret because I promised her something ;)

I'm gonna post one more SPECIAL blog post so stay tuned! Read my blog everyday starting from today onwards okay? Hehe^^ Till tomorrow!


EOY
Wednesday 26 September 2012

Gahhhhh! Papers start tomorrow and I'm still blogging. I'm trying my best not to be panicky and to keep calm to get ready for tomorrow but I can't! Someone help mee! First paper is English and I pray to God that I will not flunk it. I'm pretty sure I'll get B3/B4 for it cause my English sucks even though Ms Chua made a big effort to teach us. I'm scared ): I need m&m's ):

My mum told me just now that someone committed suicide on the opposite block. OPPOSITE BLOCK. And it was going to be the evening. Damn what a day. I hope that it will not be a jinx and will just be a passing matter.

I gotta start studying soon! Wish me luck to not stay distracted while studying!

WISH EVERYONE GOOD GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR EOY! STUDY HARD AND DO YOUR BEST~ JIAYOU & HWAITING!

By the way, how do you like my template? Girly eh? Hahaha^^ Byeeeeee~




Disappointed
Sunday 23 September 2012

Some days are just not fulfilling to my expectations. For example, Today. I had my Wushu trials and it was disappointing. My effort of training suddenly vanished into thin air after I finished the routines. I expected more from myself but turns out, I didn't do well. I didn't really have much confidence now but I hope it will not affect me in my academic area. Let's guess who will CONFIRM be going for the overseas trip. Zoey, Jovan, Isaac, Si Yuan, Natalie, Ellie, Jon, Berwin, Tanya and Jessie. I'm pretty sure there are a lot more but for now, I'm sure I will not go. I didn't cekong and my jian really sucked. I should have practiced harder but the trials ended and I could do nothing about it. I'll just pray to God that something good will happen. I should be studying now but instead I'm blogging about this. I should go now. Have fun studying~ I'll have faith in God.




Trials
Monday 17 September 2012

Hello everyone! So during the weekends, I was not being productive enough. I didn't study and I regretted. EOY is one week away and I'm still slacking. Eventhough I made a timetable, I didn't really follow it. Enough about this, let's talk about my trials.

There is a trial/selection for a competiton and an overseas trip for Wushu. It is conducted next Saturday afternoon and I'm pretty worried. The thing is, if I get to go to the overseas trip, most probably, I will go for the competition. I don't want to go to the competition but I want to go to the overseas trip. I heard from someone that the place we are going to is a very mountain-y place and is very beautiful. I really want to go there and I hope I get through the selection. Wish me luck!

These days, my problems are getting better but I'm sure new ones will pop out soon. I could not get distracted anymore. I just hope that God is with me during this period of time and that I could do my best to study and score well for my EOY. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow and I know that YOU too don't so let's enjoy the time we have left before Monday comes.


In love with this song these days. Have a listen ok? Byeeeee~



Hello :)
Saturday 15 September 2012

My Mum is like the best mom ever - to me. She really understands me and most of the time, me and my brother will talk about our problems with her. Since she is our mother, why not trust her right? Haha. So lately, I've been having problems after problems and I am sick of it. I was crying when my mum found me. It was really embarrassing and she talked to me in her room. After a while, I felt glad that I actually have a caring mother like her. Even if she annoys me and gets mad at me, I know that she cares. She tells me all her ridiculously funny childhood stories and I really anticipated it. She was really a DEVIL. HAHAHA.

Other than that, EOY is coming. I'm really nervous and scared at the same time. I didn't use my Sep Hols to revise and I only have 2 weeks to prepare. I'm scared that I won't do well like last term and I could not score well. It makes me feel insecure and I don't know how I could solve it. I have twitter and my blog to express my feelings but I need someone, ELLIE! Haha^^ She's really my sister. She's my 4th priority after God, My Parents and Wushu. I always go to her whenever I have problems and frankly speaking I prefer my Wushu mates than my School mates. So yeah, just wanna wish Hildans all the best for EOY. Jiayou and Persevere! Byeeee~






Sorry if you guys don't like KPOP but I really treasure this song a lot! Its called That Bastard.. Have a listen ok? :)


And School Reopens...
Tuesday 11 September 2012

So, school reopens tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it. Maybe just a little. But its all for the examinations sake.I'm really dreading tomorrow and I hope I could pay attention to what the teachers will be teaching us. I will promise myself to not get distracted by idiotic things and study and I will try my best to not talk during classes. I'm gonna take down notes if I could and I'm really boring now..

So tomorrow is Tuesday which means that I have training tomorrow at TKPS! Ellie told me that she will be coming back to train to get her CIP hours. Her school is really kiasu eh? But she also went to AHS through DSA so I guess she had to work harder XD Guess I have to sleep now. Goodnight! Byeee~


Wushu Outing
Saturday 8 September 2012


 

Hello Guys and Girls! So today is 07/09/12 which is the Wushu Outing for the team! Han Song Lao Shi,  Sheryl, Callista, Jun Hui, Jing Sen, Yit Yong, Le Ting, Jun Hui and me were supposed to meet at 12 but most of us were late except for Sheryl T^T Kenny, Cheng Jun and Ray were supposed to come but they didn't because they had girlfriends to take care of ;) We went to ECP to cycle and it eventually rained ): I guess you might have anticipated the pictures so here it is!











Yeah Group Photo!

 




So holidays are going to end. But lucky for Hildans, Monday is still a holiday! Study hard and do well for the exams! Wishing to all P6's to do well in their upcoming PSLE! Do not study too much and do not play too much! Balance it well okay guys? Remember even if I say hurtful things, I just want you guys to wake up before its too late! Jiayou~ Byeeeee~


Wushu
Saturday 1 September 2012

Most of you should have known by now how obsessed I am with Wushu. I could brag about it the WHOLE day. It really has been a part of my life for 7 years. 7 years straight. Most of you don't really know what Wushu is about so...


The weapon this AMAZING guy is holding is a Dao aka Broadsword. I am currently not learning this weapon but I find it scary because most of my seniors and some of my juniors hurt themselves during their training. 



This is Jian aka Sword. I'm currently stuck with 4-duan jian and I want to learn jingsai jian because it is much more complicated and pretty for competitions. Natalie, my wushu mate learned this. I'm so envious of her ): She looks super cool doing this but I still have a lot to learn. I need to take my time though.


This is Qiang aka Spear. I finished learning this routine but I'm still nervous for competitions next year. I'll just  put these 3 videos in here :)

So, I've been having questions such as "How did you come to have an interest for a Chinese Sport?" or "Do you understand the Chinese Coach?" . Surprisingly, the Chinese Community is very special to me, since most of my friends are Chinese people and I respect their religion too! But my school was the one that influenced me to it. There was this Wushu Company that came to my school 7 years ago in TKPS and we have to follow what they are doing on stage. I successfully managed to do all the basics and I got selected to be in the CCA. 
For the next question, I actually attended CCM in Primary School so I could understand a bit of Chinese but mostly I will ask my friends to translate what my Coach is trying to say :)

I know that I am having really really bad problems nowadays and the only thing I want now is my Wushu training. You may think it is crazy to have vigorous and tiring training but the thing is, you don't know how big my love for Wushu is. Wushu is my relieve for stress, my happiness and my BESTEST FRIEND. It goes through a journey with me for 7 years and only Wushu understands my deep pain and sorrow. When I train, I don't think of stupid and idiotic things since we have to do vigorous things and I have no time to think of anything at all except for my routines. It distracts me from everything else and I feel thankful for it. I don't get stress on the weekends since my trainings are on the weekends.

I thank God for Wushu because without it, I'd not be disciplined like I am right now, I will not have to dream to represent Singapore in 2016 in Wushu and I'd not have 50% of my happiness. I thank God for all the opportunities I had through Wushu and I thank God for everything that he has done for me. 

I'm sorry for the long post but that's just because Wushu is my life. This is just the beginning. 

Wishing all students a HAPPY HOLIDAYS and STUDY HARD for SA2 ! JIAYOU IN EVERYTHING YOU DO AND DON'T GIVE UP !


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