I've had enough of this problems. Friendship problems.

Friendship Problems.

It has been too much for me to handle all these things at once. I came in SHSS for the first time and since most of the students are from SHPS, they will surely know each other. I am an outsider and I don't know A THING about SHPS and SHSS. But after a few months knowing most of them, I find that I can't really trust anyone. It is very hard for me to trust anyone with my secrets and I feel dumb. I have a lot of things to tell them about myself but I fear the risks. Its just too risky for me and I feel uncomfortable around them. If just for one day, I am left alone, I wouldn't mind. I just don't fit in with them. I feel like I'm treated like an outsider rather than a Hildan. Once, I thought of transferring to Ngee Ann Sec because of Wushu but then the thought changed from Wushu to Friendship problems. If they can't treat me like a normal Hildan, then why am I here in the first place? Why am I in SHSS when I actually could go to Ngee Ann with my PSLE score? I just don't know why I'm being put here with these kinds of people that don't even know my interest and yet still thinking that I understand them. I'm sorry if you're reading this but this is the truth. I'm just not used to this and I feel like a retard everytime I'm with you guys. Talk all you want but I will not understand a thing you say. I may be an EXTRA to you but I'm just trying to find out more about you guys and girls. Its very hard for me to interact with all of you since all of you are different. I just hope you are getting the message. I'm sorry if this post hurt your heart or think differently about me now, but I'll just accept it. Its my heart and my choice to post this and I will not change for anyone. So yeah, bye.

Back after a long time(?) School was CRAAZAY. Syania wrote the quote :)
~There is no such happiness in Reality~
Guess that's kind of true. But my happiness in this world is Wushu XD So as I was saying, school became CRAAZAY after Common Test was done. We had a Fun Fair for the elderly to commemorate National Day on Wednesday but to be honest, I rarely saw any elders. (MY BAD) but the experience was fun :) My class has to sell beverages and we earned quite a sum. Proud of 1E :)

Syania drew this too. It was meant to be scary but I found it too funny to be scary. I can't stop laughing when I look at it and I have to refrain from looking at it now, if not, I am going to wake up the whole family XD When The Night Comes is just soo irrelevant right Syania? ;)

Oh yeah, the hockey boys are going to have a match on Monday and 1E was invited to watch the match. Of course I'm going to support our boys~ Gonna pray that they will get 3rd position :)

Some Singaporeans should know who is Tzire :) He appeared in the NDP show and is in Youtube too. His raps are sick and I am now addicted to his rap to As Long As You Love Me with Allison Brustofski <3 And before I went to sleep, he tweeted me this. I can't sleep last night and my anxiety level was beyond the heavens! It was a shock to get this from someone awesome but this, this is just speechless. I LOVE YOU TZIRE!!

Hope all of you are surviving school and keep fighting for what you want! My eyebags are getting worser and I should be sleeping by now but I just can't. I better stop now. Guess this is it, blog soon. Muah <3 Byeeeee~